Ahh....Debating...

I'll tell ya right now. I love "Bush". That's the "pussy" not the "President". I'm pretty straight with people on my political views. I'm watching the debate right now, and I haven't seen a reason to change my position yet. Bush as thus far just attacked Kerry's credibility and keep reminding us of Kerry's oppinon changing on the war of Iraq. Kerry admits that he "Made a mistake when talking about the war, but making the war was a bigger mistake." I know that's not an exact quote, but it's close enough.

I just really want Bush out of office. He doesn't need to stay there anymore. His presidency has been fairly predictable. We all knew a war was gonna come no matter what happened. We don't need another war over the next few years. We've got too many problems here to take care of instead of taking on the problems of the rest of the world.

What's Happening?

Something I tend to ask myself alot. I curl up under the covers and my bed and think, "what the hell have I been doing for the past 2 years?". It's like time seemed to stop, and I've been stuck in this depressing mind set. But, I've at least learned a lot within this time period. I don't know what that is right now, and I can really give any examples or anything, but I can say I have a much different view on my life.

On another topic. Love. It always starts out happy. You find the person, You fall in love with them all is happy. Eventually though, you fall out of love with them, and then things get bad. You find yourself, memorizing mean song lyrics and just genuinely not wanting to be around the person. That's why love stories are so depressing. There's that ending that just rips at the strings of your heart. Why can't it happen in reverse? It'd be so much easier. Why can't you just get through with hating the person, and then get to the happy part? It'd be so much "happier."

Books and Movies Galore

Yeah for new stuff in my posession!!

For new movies, "Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless Mind" came out. It's a freakin awesome movie. Ever want to totally forget about somone? Well, according to this movie, you can! I'd say it was one of my favorite movies of the past year. It's got a special place in my heart. Not to mention it has Kate Winslet in it.

Also, a new Michael Moore movie hit DVD. "The Big One" is his attack on big business. I haven't watched it yet, but dammit I'm going to. He's on a book tour, and he hits big companies as he goes. Comedy ensues. He even mocks a Media Play. It's about time!

I also picked up "America (the book)". It's the new book by John Stewart, but it's set up like an actual history book which only magnifies the hilarity of it all. The book even quotes our four fathers. Like George Washington for example:

"Jefferson, you're on the two. Hamilton? You get the ten. I'm calling the one. That's all me, baby. What's that, Adams? You wanted the one? All right, that's it: You don't get to be on anything. That's right, I'm taking back the quarter. Anyone else want to complain? I didn't think so."

Question

What do you want out of life?

Quick update

My car smells......Yup, that's about it. Now, back to homework.

Echo gone away. but ordinary vindicated screaming a favor of giving up

I close my eyes and let the whole thing pass me by.
Hope, it dangles on a string, like slow screaming redemption.
Hold the hand of your best friend, look into their eyes and watch them drift away.
Hope you comedown with something they can't diagnose, don't have a cure for.
I'd do anything to have her to myself, just to have her for myself.
Can you feel your heartbeat racing? Can you taste the fear in your sweat?
I used to think the light shined for you.
And when I come to the rescue I get nothing but left behind.
Everyone's caught onto everything you do, everyone's caught on to you.
I can't breath when you cry, but I'll be there to hold you tight.
The words you scribbled on the wall, the loss of friends you didn't have.
You're not alone, you're not discreet, make sure I know who's taking you home.

"Hambone" or crazy things to do with tape.

Now, comes the part where I relieve you little people of all your sins.....

Wait, that's another post.

Ok, I've found myself lately once again questioning what I want to do with my life. Part of me just wants to get my Bus. Admin. Degree and be done with everything. The only problem is, what can I do with a Bus. Admin. Degree. I know a few people that have this degree and their not doing anything with it. What's the point of getting a degree if it's not gonna be useful in any part of your life? I admit this degree will be useful in my life eventually. Right now, I'm questioning everything though.

There's my one love that has escaped me over the past couple years, partly because I've been trying to seperate myself from the person I once was, but it continues to creep up to me. That is my love of Performance Art. Like music, theater, all that other shit.

Now, let me clarify, I'm not gay. But, I'm seriously considering going to some kind of film school once I get my Bus. Degree.

Oh, and Josh shall now and forever be known as "Hambone".

Shit I don't talk about, but should

Alright, most of the people that come here know me. There's always a few people that randomly click my link on Nick's site but, most of my vistors are my friends. So, here we go.

Most of the time when our loved ones go into the hospital we feel we should be there. We feel the need to see them and try to help them.

My mother is in the hospital and I don't want to see her. You see, she recently tried to overdose on Tylenol. What brought her to this point I don't know? and if I ask her about it she can't give me an answer. This isn't the first time she's done this, and sadly, I'm sure it's not the last. She's tried this at least once a year since my senior year of high school. I called my sister and told her about it she had the same feeling I did. She figured it would happen again sooner or later, as did I. But, I'm numb to it. It seems like everyone else I know would freak out or something if one of their parents tried that, but I see it as, "Oh, this again?". I feel terrible for it, but what the hell am I suppose to do? I've tried to help her so many times and nothing ever changes. It's not my fault she tries to kill herself, she does it to herself. I just hope by thinking clearly about everything now I can avoid a mental breakdown when I'm in my 30's crying to a therapist that my mother never cared for me.

What am I to do with my utter lack of feeling?

New Jersey Or Something LIke It.

I ventured to the local movie watching place yesterday and watched an "indie" flick known as Garden State. It had to be good as Nick pointed out to me because it's an indie that has a wide release, they wouldn't give crappy indie films a wide release. Unless ya count the Blair Witch project, but that movie made more money than a lot of big budget films the year it was release. I digress.

Ok, this is the movie where the nerdy guy falls in love with Natalie Portman. C'mon, who wouldn't see that one coming. She's freaking Natalie Portman for Christ Sake's. She could play a homeless girl covered in mud and wearing tatters and she'd still be hot.

Alright, I was just kidding, in this movie Natalie plays the weird girl, that intrigues the local kid that became an actor in hollywood. Yeah, that's about the premise of it, but it's a really good movie.

Three Days Later

Ok. Well, where does the time go??

The VMA's sucked hard. It was probably the worst won ever and none of the musical acts were that good at all.

Onto other things. College is going well. I'm getting bored quite easily, but I'm not really missing much since I have know clue what's going on in class, but I can read my book so it's not that difficult.

In other news, I bought the new Astray album. Now your question is, "Who is Astray?"
Well, he's a rapper from Saginaw that I used to work with. It's a freaking awesome album coming from local talent. I really couldn't believe that people I know produced it. I was impressed to say the least.